We're down to the final days/hours/minutes, however you want to state it really, before we leave. As soon as we get ourselves packed I think things will start getting back to normal. But I really wasn't aiming to talk about the trip right now....
I think I'm hard headed. I'm just judging by how long it takes me to learn a lesson.... Sunday morning I started to get this feeling that I was in a place of waiting. Waiting for the time to pack, waiting my "new" adventure to start, waiting for some friend to tell me something new, waiting for the world to turn. Waiting, waiting, just waiting. I knew I had an adventure coming, and not only that I was looking for it... but while I was seeking that adventure, I quit living the one right now.
There have been too many comments as of late. About me, my life, what I do, how I do it, whatever, for me to comfortable any more. I think it's a good thing. Different people all came together to teach this lesson.
While waiting for my next adventure and looking hard for excitement in my small town, I quit living the adventure I have here, now.
So when the comments came, the lesson followed.
Adventure isn't about looking, but about living. The best adventure you could ever have is what is closest to you. Waiting for excitement is going to make you miss out on what is already exciting around you.
For the first time, I'm not just ready to leave; I'm ready to stay. I wish I could be here to get closer to my new friends I met just yesterday. I wish I could tell the stories of two amazing people, at this point I hardly know. I wish that I could see each day like I saw yesterday--full of life and adventure I love. I wish I could have the guts everyday to love with an open heart here in the States as I do everyday International. I wish I were open to hearing the heart of others, because yesterday I was amazed. Really amazed.
My God is the God of the impossible, His ways are higher than mine. And once again He has proven that I just don't always know what I'm talking about. I don't have to be away to have a adventure filled life, I just have to be aware. I don't have to be doing something else; I just have to be doing.
Waiting isn't worth it. Living is.